new journal: alovesored

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the new journal is public because i have nothing to hide.

I hope that Ryan is okay.
I miss him.
I wish he'd call me.
Friday is another day closer.

I'm not going to school tomorrow.
I decided that I don't need a college education.
With that said, I decided to drop out.
Actually, that's a lie.
I decided that I needed a personal day.
I'll be doing lots of homework, but it's at home and I can relax.

Tomorrow night I am going to a bowling meeting.
How geeky is that?
I might get the check for $57.00 that I'm owed from previous winnings in a tournament I participated in.

My brother is coming up Thursday night.
I am beyond excited to see him.
I wonder if he'll be bringing his fiance.
If he is, that means I have to clean the spare bedroom (Jenn's soon-to-be-room).
However, he's bringing me a birthday present so, it all equals out.

I love Jenn.
She makes everything better - my rock.

I'm definitely not lacking motivation right now. I've got a to do list that I'm confident I can get fully completed by Friday.

Last night I sat down and typed a 10-page paper within a couple of hours while talking to Jenn at the same time. I didn't know I could multi-task but I'm pretty excited to find out that I can.

Tonight I'm going to write a persuasive speech that I have to give tomorrow and create a power point presentation to go along with that. I'm also going to do my computer homework because it's fairly easy. We're working in Access so all I have to do is complete a database and such.

Tomorrow I'm going to write a paper that I have due in my supervision class on Monday. It's over age discrimination so that shouldn't be too bad. I'm also going to study for a quiz I have on Thursday over chapter 9 in my business class. I also need to finalize my business plan that I completed last night and make it look pretty and professional.

Hooray for motivation.

I've decided to make public posts again. I hate the idea of protecting my entries simply to avoid any unnecessary drama. I shouldn't have to.

What's going on in my life?

1) I'm dating.
2) I'm doing well in school.
3) I'm spending lots of time with friends.
4) I'm living with a roommate.
5) I'm the co-owner of 2 kittens.
6) I'm happy.

I am dating Ryan. He's away in London right now and will arrive home Friday night. We met randomly through my best friend, Jenn, and her boyfriend, Jake, at a show that they both invited us to. We've gone out on several dates since we met and I couldn't be happier. The anticipation of him coming home on Friday is pure torture. Hopefully we spend a majority of the weekend together to make up for lost time.

I'm doing well in school. I'm pretty confident in my academic performance. All of my classes are interesting. My professors are friendly and actually care about their students which is nice and refreshing. I've made so many new friends and they are all amazing people. I'm constantly being invited out to lunch and accompanied to the library and such. It's nice to feel wanted and I'm glad that I made the switch from one college to the next. I'm less confused now than I was a few months ago about what I want to do with my life. I'm sticking with business because it does interest me and I would like to go on and earn my bachelors degree after I graduate with my associates degree. I'm thinking about taking a year off inbetween and finding a job that will assist me, financially, in attending another college.

I'm spending lots of time with friends. I hadn't been social in so long. Thankfully, all of my friendships sparked back up again almost instantly. I've been spending time with people from high school as well as the new college friends I mentioned previously. Jenn is my best friend. We've had our differences in the past but we've worked through them and are closer than we have ever been before. It's amazing how much fun we can have together and how close we are. I can tell her anything and she knows she can do the same. We are eachother's support system.

I'll be living with a roommate in 3 weeks. Jenn is moving into the house I live in now and my parents are moving out of this house and into a house that they built together. I am going to live in the same room that I live in now and Jenn is going to live in the spare bedroom (my old bedroom). My parent's bedroom will be turned into a game room/lounge. We are fortunate enough to keep the furniture that is in the house now such as the couch, chair, coffee table, etc. We are purchasing a table and chairs for the dining room and an entire themed-set for the bathroom. We're going to paint the bedrooms and redecorate the house. She's living with me until September and then I'm unsure of what I will do after that. I may, possibly, put an ad out for a roommate, continue living here on my own (depending on the type of job I have, etc.), or move in with my parents at their new house. There is a huge bedroom there for me already if I do choose the third plan. It would give me a chance to save my money and also purchase a car and put my money towards that instead of rent. I suppose I'll have to wait and see what happens.

I'm the co-owner of 2 kittens. Jenn and I will be taking in 2 female kittens in 3 weeks when Jenn comes home from college for the summer. Her older brother's girlfriend has a cat who had kittens and we have claimed 2 of those. They are dark in color and that is about all we know. The rest is a mystery. I'll be taking care of the kittens when Jenn goes back to school so hopefully the kittens don't hate me and we can form some sort of a positive bond, haha. We're both really excited. I can't figure out what I want to do with Charley. He's cute and I love him, but he's a huge responsibility. It wouldn't be so bad if he was actually trained. I've had him for 5 months and he still isn't fully house-trained. It's frustrating. Anybody want a male golden retriever with the most mellow disposition I've ever encountered?

I'm happy.

It's my birthday.
Whoa, I'm 20 years old.

Happy 19th birthday, Devon!

Happy Birthday Nicole! :-*

I went to bed really early last night because my friends decided it was the cool thing to do. I decided I would, too, but it wasn't easy. Good thing Jenn called me before I went to bed or I would have never fallen asleep.

Speaking of Jenn...
She's sleeping over the entire weekend.
We're going to listen to Pete and give makeovers (we're girls, duh).

I'm going to clean my room today because it's a mess. That's my ultimate goal. I also want to finish all of my homework today and pretend I'm caught up in school again. Tomorrow I'm going to the library so I can work on my paper that's due in late April. I'm tricking myself into thinking I'm motivated (it's working!).

I'm tired. It's early. :-(

It's April Fool's Day and it's my most dreaded day ever. I'm so gullible. If anyone wants to play a trick on me - think again! (Did that sound threatening?)

My birthday is in 7 days. Eek.

These entries are pointless but I had fun, if that counts...

So I quit college and I packed all of my stuff up last night. I'm going on a road trip to the west coast and you're all invited if you'd like to join me.

Actually, none of that happened (or is happening). I just wanted to spice my life up a little. Granted, I wish I could do those things right now.

I've been listening to the saddest music lately. You'd think I'd stop listening to it after hours of crying. I like it. I feel emotionally drained when I listen to it but it's fabulous.

Tonight I'm going bowling with Ryan, Joey, and Nate. It should be fun even though I'm pretty sure I'll do awful. Oh well, they'll feel bad if they win and I end up crying.

I might do my homework today. I made a list of things I need to do and I'm going to try really hard to complete the entire list. I probably won't but it sounded like I was determined and actually motivated.

It's my mum's birthday.

I like today.

The end.

I'm stressed out. I need to find my motivation again because I'm digging myself into this huge hole. I feel like I"ll never be able to get back on track at the rate I'm going.

Tomorrow I have classes from 8:00 - 9:30, 11:00 - 12:30, and then 12:30 - 2:00. I have a quiz to study for in between my classes and I'm hoping I can successfully prepare myself for that. I'm behind in assignments in my computer class, but I'm going to fix that tomorrow. I also have two assignments I need to complete for my English class but those aren't due until Thursday. I need to write a speech tomorrow. I'm not having trouble writing the speech - I'm just finding it difficult to sit down and stay motivated for a long enough period of time. I suppose everything will work out in the end (it always does).

Maybe I should take next semester off? I don't know. I never know when it comes to me. I have all of these crazy dreams and goals that will probably never become reality.

On a more positive note: I went to the movies with Ryan, Joey, and Nate. That was fun even though we got yelled at for being too loud. :-(

My parents are being nice to me. I suppose that's something to be happy about. It's been a while since they've even talked to me so I guess I should throw a party of some sorts.

I have to get up in 5.5 hours. I hope that's enough time to plot out what I'm going to do and how I'm going to get back on track.

I'm rambling. I'm good at it.

Henn, I heart you. ;-) Code names are fun.

I think you should get one personal day a week away from school. My theory is rather weak, but I'll come up with some reasons to back it up and get back to you. Next semester is looking promising considering I'll only be at school twice a week opposed to the four days I'm at school now. You'd think that I'd have time to complete all of my assignments with my reoccurring three-day weekends, but I definitely don't. I procrastinate and I'm ridiculously unmotivated. I just want to get out of school and start doing my own thing.

I stayed up way too late (again).

I have to complete the following for tomorrow. I guess this list will keep me motivated (maybe?):
BCA120 - Excel 132, Excel 141 #2
ENG220 - Pg. 263: #7 + 9
BUS100 - Quiz on Chapter 6
SPE101 - Informative Speech

Jelly beans + breakfast = bad idea. :-/ It sounded good at the time...

Tomorrow is Melissa's 21st birthday! Happy birthday, princess.

Don't read the rest of this; it's boring.

I procrastinated and now I have this huge speech due tomorrow that I have yet to complete.

I went to the Pete Kilpatrick CD release party at the Big Easy in Portland with Jake, Jenn, and Ryan. Afterwards we went to Denny's and then hung out at Jake's house for a while. We have tons of pictures and I'm sure I'll end up posting those some day.

I have to get ready to go to Easter dinner soon. My mom got me this huge basket full of candy and money and such. I was surprised because I'm almost 20 years old and she's still doing cute little things like that for me. I really appreciate it and kind of hope she never stops.

I'm supposed to have lunch with some friends at school tomorrow so that should be fun. Then, I think I'm going to the movies at night with Joey (maybe Nate, Ryan - I'm not sure?). It's up-in-the-air so if it happens it happens, I guess.

I have to go bowling tonight because apparently it's okay to have bowling on Easter (even though the woman in charge of it all cancelled it on Super Bowl Sunday). Easter is completely commercialized in my household so it really doesn't bother me at all but I'm sure there are a lot of people who actually celebrate it for the true reasons.

I'm in a good mood today. It's weird, I'm never in a good mood. ;-)

I had a lot of fun tonight.

I am exhausted.
I am so thankful that this week has finally come to an end.

I lacked motivation this week.
I think it's because it was the week after vacation.
I'm finally getting into the swing of things again but I did absolutely no homework this week.
All of my professors decided to give us an extra week to study for tests and write our papers.
I suppose I have good luck in that sense.

Tonight I went bowling with Joey and Nate.
We went candlepin bowling and it was fun.
I think I enjoyed it so much because I won *cough*.
We drove around the ghetto and acted crazy (it comes natural).
Maybe we'll do something again sometime soon.

Tomorrow I'm going to Old Navy and buying some new clothes.
I also need to do some banking and pay my credit card bill.
I have bowling tomorrow night which is getting pretty expensise (after it all adds up).

Saturday Jenn, Jake, Ryan, and I are going to a show in Portland.
I think we'll have a pretty good time but I'm sure Jenn and I will drive Jake and Ryan crazy.

This was a pointless entry but I felt like informing everyone of my pathetic life.
The end.